(Thursday, February 23, 2006 / 6:47 PM)
It has been a while since I last post.
Oh yeah.
Been too busy with schooworksl. Common tests and projects.
I just don't understand, what's the use of having projects. It waste my time. It really waste a lot of time. Even money can't buy back time, do you know that?
I'm going berserk sooner or later. Or in facts I have.
I'm failing all my tests right now. I know I'm going to see red in my progress card. I know my limit well - you. don't. have. to. tell. me.
Especially additional mathematic. I will be really happy if I don't get a zero. At least one mark perhaps? I pin no hope on this paper. It's the worst of the worst lot.
Tomorrow there is have literature and emath tests. Again, I don't hope for anything too high, I just hope that i will pass them. I'm a realistic person.
Time flew by really very fast. In a blink of eyes and I am already secondary 3. Next year i will be sitting for the o' level examination soon. Isn't that fast?
Yesterday was yujuan's birthday. She must have gotten a lot of presents because she was carrying a lot of bags when she came out of her classroom. haha. anyway, although i have wished her yesterday when i gave her the present, still,
"Happy 15th Birthday, Yujuan!"(is it 15th? yeah. think so *scratch head*)
I don't know why, suddenly feel so lonely and useless. Felt as though I don't have any friends, and whatever I do, they are forever wrong and never right.
I have depression. I am a sadist. My heart just feels so empty. if you don't think so, then you don't understand me at all. All you see is just the outer human shell of me. you never try to understand me, and i know you never will.
my hatred for you will never ever be gone. so do the projects.
